Wednesday, February 10, 2021
– Morgan Wallen, whose career was in shambles following the release of a video showing him using the N-word last week, released a five-minute video
on Instagram, asking supporters not to defend for his actions.
Wallen, who was suspended by his label and saw radio play plummet, said he met with Black officials and has been sober for nine days.
"I have one favor to ask. I appreciate those who still see something in me and have defend me, but for today, please don't," Wallen said at the conclusion of the video. "I was wrong. It's on me to take ownership of this. and I fully accept any penalties I'm facing. The time of my return is solely upon me and the work I put in it."
Wallen was shown in a video from TMZ on Jan. 30 with friends and used the N-word about one of his friends. The Instagram video appeared to have been made last week.
"The video you saw was me on hour 72 of 72 of a bender, and that's not something I'm proud of either," he said. "Obviously, the natural thing to do is to apologize further andjust continue to apologize, because you caught and that's not what I want to do."
"I've let so many people mean, who mean a lot to me, who given so much to me" he said. "I let my parents down, and they're furthest thing from person in that video. I let my son down, and I'm not okay with that."
"I accepted some invitations from some amazing Black organizations, some executives and leaders, to engage in some very real and honest conversations."
Saying he was "pretty nervous" to meet due to his actions, Wallens said, "They had every right to step on my neck to not show me any grace, but they did the exact opposite. They offered me grace and they also paired that with an offer to learn and grow. I'll be honest with you. That kindness really inspired me to dig deeper on how to do something about this."
"One thing I've learned already...is that my words matter," Wallen said. ""Words can really hurt a person, and in my core, that's not what I'm okay with."
"This week I heard first-hand some personal stories from Black people that honestly shook me, and I know what I'm going through this week doesn't compare to some of the trials I heard about from them. I came away from those discussions with a deep appreciation for them and a clearer understanding of the weight of my words."
"I wish the circumstances were different for me to learn these things, but I'm also glad that it started the process for me to do so," he said. "I've got many more things to learn, but I already know that I don't want to add to any division."
"Our actions matter. Our words matter.and I just want to encourage anybody watching to please learn from my mistakes. There's no reason to downplay what I did. It matters, and I'm carefully choosing my next steps to repair."
Saying he was sober, "It's not all that long of a time, but it's enough to know that the man in that video is not the man that I'm trying to be.
'When I look on the times that I'm not, it seems to be where the majority of my mistakes are made. So I decided to go off the grid a little while and get used to making good decisions."
"Who knows if I'll be able to live down all the mistakes that I made, but I'm certainly going to try. I'm going to spend some time taking back control of my habit, living healthy and being proud of my actions."
"I'll keep searching for ways to become the example instead of ways of being made one."
"I'm not trying to be a holy roller or anything," before quoting Corinthians, and saying he was going to "give up childish ways."